You could say I'm hard to hold
But if you knew me you'd know....
Today was the day I gave in. The day I accepted the fact I can't continue to work. The shortened ICU shifts are even too much. I'm constantly exhausted due to severe dehydration. I don't keep any food down. I vomit numerous times a day. I'm weak and I'm tired. I had no idea this would be so hard.
I have a beautiful baby bump and love every kick and movement. I'm giving everything I am to this little life inside of me. They tell me you're healthy and growing. They tell me not to worry. Believe in the process and take care of you by taking care of me. I guess maybe this will make me a stronger woman in the end. What doesn't kill us makes us strong, right?! At least that's what they say.
Things work out like they should...
Someday soon I'll get to see you smile. I heard your tiny heart beat again today and it makes all these struggles worth it. Your tiny little hand is jabbing me in the ribs as I write this. It hurts.. a lot but it makes me smile. You have me wrapped around your little finger and you aren't even born yet.
"Life ain't always beautiful but it's a beautiful ride."